Written 14/2/2020

I know you're gonna leave me
It's just a matter of time
I could just enjoy the moment
And savour while you're mine
But every day gets closer
To the end of the line
I know you're gonna leave me
It's just a matter of time

I know I'll be alone
By about this time next year
You can see how tough I am
Hiding every single tear
I could love you for a lifetime
Instead of striking out in fear
But I know I'll be alone
By about this time next year

The monsters sit beside me
And call to me by name
They wrap themselves around me
And drown me in my shame
Your love lights up the darkness
And helps me ease my pain
But they stare through my reflection
And I hear them call my name

Love is not a cure
But it helps soften the blow
And I begin to mirror
All the courage that you show
Perhaps there is a future
If I allow myself to grow
No, love is not a cure
But please teach me what you know

Written 31/1/2020

You held me in your gaze
And you told me that you'd love me in so many ways
But when I showed you my saddest pats
You left me torn open with an unguarded heart

So why waste my time?
Did you think that your bullshit
Would one day become mine?
And we'd share in your spineless ways
Fighting fake monsters for the rest of our days?

[Chorus]
My pain won't transmit
So you can stop acting like you'll catch my shit
And get off your damn throne
You've got work to do on your own

It's been twenty-odd years
Since you told me you were safe and then reduced me to tears
Because I showed you my broken wing
And that prompted your defenses and made me feel your sting

But why turn on me?
Did I expose a side that you were too scared to see
In your own hungry soul
Now you avoid the very thing that will make you whole?

[Chorus]